what’s this blog about?
Living and being fully present with an open heart to whatever I am experiencing in the moment is the ‘pear of great price’ for me. My pattern has been to avoid all that and to ‘make war’ against reality by fashioning a life that subtly resists intimacy and pain and confrontation. In the words on this blog I talk to myself about how to stop this war, not by force of my own will, but by an organic understanding that grows like a tree sown in the ground. Spiritual joy and wisdom require an ongoing and unwavering commitment to open my heart to all that is, to whatever I am experiencing, especially the pervasive, underlying feelings of incompleteness and fear.
Here are two quotes that broadly summarize what this blog is about:
“Just go into the room and put one chair in the center. Take the one seat in the center of the room, open all the doors and windows, and see who comes to visit. You will witness all kinds of scenes and actors, all kinds of temptations and stories, everything imaginable. Your only job is to stay in your seat. You will see it arise and pass, and out of this, wisdom and understanding will come.” –Achaan Chah
“When we let go of our battles with life as we are experiencing it, and we open our heart to things as they are, then we come to rest in the present moment. Only in this moment can we find the love that we seek…Only in the reality of the present can we love, can we awaken, can we find peace and understanding and connection with ourselves and the world. This is the end and the beginning of spiritual practice” –Jack Kornfield, The Path with Heart, 26.
I hope to attain the wisdom and the maturity to live here now and be somewhere else later.